Ko Te Maipi raua ko Tararua oku maunga
I descend from the mountains of Te Maipi & Tararua
Ko Kaihoata raua ko Hokio oku awa
I descend from the rivers of Kaihoata & Hokio
Ko Takitimu raua ko Kurahaupo oku waka
I descend from the waka (sea vessel) Takitimu & Kurahaupo
Ko Ngati Kahungunu ki Wairarapa raua ko Muauupoko oku iwi
Ngati Kahungunu & Muauupoko are my bones
Ko Te Ataarangi taku ingoa – My name is Te Ataarangi
I’ve been fat my entire life.
A combination of genetics, prolonged childhood rape and beatings that continued well into my adult life, a narley drug addiction, multiple suicide attempts, mental distress, gender identity distress, sexual orientation distress and chronic fear (feeling unsafe) regarding the culture I most identify with (Maaori) – ensured I stayed fat.
I hit a new low in 2014/5. I reached 204kg. It was decision time – did I want to live, or was I going to continue down the pathway of passive suicide – just biding my time until my body gave out on me.
It’s a long story – a very complex multi-layered story that I’m unsure I’ll ever be able to tell in it’s entirety. So this blog is used primarily as a space to update achievements, process and occasionally a chapter of the actual story.
Appreciate the space.
E tuu whakaiti nei – I stand in humility.