I’m on hiatus from beating myself up – for.the.time.being.
Had a very productive day on Wednesday. Sorted and chucked out paper work. Filed paper work. Made a difficult phone call. Overhauled (serious clean) the bathroom and kitchen (including oven) and went through my wardrobe and made 3 separate piles of clothing; chuck outs; charity bin and give to ____. I parted with a pair of faithful black track pants that I have had for around 15 freaking years! Relax! – there’s another pair that I bought the same time that I’ve kept. Bottom line is, I feel more in control of my life and my world again.
<- To celebrate, I bought myself a dress ->
2 weeks ago Kaiwhakaora Kai was wearing a dress and she looked absolutely stunning. The impact of seeing Kaiwhakaora Kai in a dress was that she feels safe enough to wear one. And that struck a note deep within me.
I have a lot of tunics – that I wear either leggings or jeans under – no dresses though. Soooooooo – I bought one. And I absofuckinglutely love it. Unsure if I’m ready to be seen without leggings under the dress (which translates to: unsure if I feel safe enough to wear it without leggings). I can’t wait for my first public appearance in it though! I may wear it to my next appointment with Kaiwhakaora Kai and see if she notices …